last month of the year 2019

been months i never been to the blog, i should started every month at least once for my blog,

this year  i had been achieved of so many things.good and bad things come well it call life.

good things are my relationship is still kinda stable. 4 years to go. is kinda long for me. but i m very comfort with it. not until very reliable on him. life still going, age getting old too.we bought a house, yes, that is exciting,but terrific whether all the commitment coming. NO MORE TRAVEL?><

my career been very good for me for the entire year, but next year will be bad years if follow lunar calendar. hope everything will be good. sometime have to sacrifice, should i make some changes. is it good or bad to change the path?.lot of pressure and thoughs in my mind, but it din help me to jump over it yet.

my family so far so good. nothing so much serious on it.just maybe mum little bit weak on her body.but overall from relationship still okay.nothing much to talk about too.

friendship:><..... ppl come ppl go, well i met alot of different ppl everyday. is a good start and somehow quite challenging for me too. satsify EVEVRYONE is not easy, but i try my best to be better.enjoy myself first.haha. when the age grow , the friends number decrease, let the true real friend around me will be good. is not easy to become close friends but time will proves everything.

holiday trip, this year very good year at least i flew few country 

singapore trip with friends, we were going for the events at the same time just walk around but the changi jewel airport not official open yet.. i just miss their food there. everything in singapore will be walk , walk, and walk. haha.

korea seoul and jeju can be said 6/10 for the rate. u ask me whether will i go over again, no i wont. going for shopping and food, yes i will love it. the weather too cold until no mood to walk

next will be bangkok trip on may , i was travelling with my students which are quite nice, we went to kanchaburi outside from bangkok take around 3 hours car drive to reach the destination. one thing in thailand is HOT. other things i still love it,would like to go every year. of course not forget to change my fashion into my wardrobe. 

the last trip was tokyo autumn trip where we travel 6 of us. i love the weather it was not too cold compare to korea. food was my favourite things, and of course my pikachu, disneysea ^^.enjoyable trip with a bunch of lovely friends. i will love to travel to other place in japan not in osaka / tokyo.

would like to plan for fukoka.

next year hanoi is our 4th anniversary trip. is good to go somewhere is not busy, relax and chill. i am exciting for it but just to scare for the hot weather and first time going too. lot of worries and scare of the scam there too. so just be well prepared. 

well hopefully next year will good to be. BO BEE BO BEE... time to sleep. nitez.

hi

been a years i never come back,
like kpop stars come back stage.
i m glad that the past year i m doing good.
nothing to be afraid.
i got my achievement
wishes never stop once u achieve one by one
human are greedy that u couldn't ask for more
been a year, i m doing good in my career,but start to feel tired of it.
not an easy job by the way.
family still ok, doesnt like the past 10 years, still have that kind of teenage heart.
relationship still keep on going, sometimes feel like is it a good thing or bad thing.
but at least it is the longest relationship i ever had. nothing much to think more about it.
make it simple will be better. everything will get known after u go to another world.
going to be another middle age,another more challenges coming soon.
see what happen next.
see when will write it again.
will tell story here again.

is 3.31am now.><. going to sleep.
nite
dark

chris  

平平淡淡也是一种幸福？

过了一年半，不知不觉的，
平平的度过，各有各忙的，
彼此好像少了些什么。
没有了每个月的鲜花，每个月的庆祝。
应该是这样度过的吧？
日子久了，稳定了，就会平平淡淡？

虽然没有了一开始的顾虑，醋意，责问。
也是换来一定的安稳，不必要的争吵。
就这样吧。。。

说好的幸福呢？

不知不觉中， 走过了那么漫长的路，
一路上，
 有微风阳光普照，青草蓝天白云，
优美，温和：
有时会突然狂风暴雨，雷雨交加，
恐怖，害怕。

风依然在吹，雨还是不停的下，心中的冰不能融化。何时才能停止？
为你我受冷风吹，寂寞时候流眼泪，
那歌词，就瞬间在口边嚷嚷地哼着，
有时候表现的不在乎，心里紧张的要命。
看着其他人可以劝导，唯有自己的时候不知所措。

一步一步的步步精耘， 一步一步的步步惊心。
还有多少的风风雨雨，还有多少的泪雨直下。
小草儿，那么渺小，可是那么强壮，
旁儿的大树，那么庞大，可是那么的脆弱。

自己的下一步，好好的，慢慢的， 深思熟虑的，
看着办吧。。。。。

最后一次

离开之前，答应的都草草了事的做，根本没想过珍惜这段。。。
离开了，你应该比较好过。不会那么被你大声的骂，
被猪狗似的对待，无法走了。。

心， 去哪了？
脚， 疼了。
泪， 干了，
目，盲了。
听，腻了，
停下了。

一切一切，让心跳暂停，让眼睛闭幕，让耳朵柱塞，让呼吸缓慢。。。。
不知不觉，自己到了哪，不闻不问不听不说不看。。。。
悬崖就在一瞬之见， 跌与否，也是一念之间。。
不知道，不想知，也没得知。

心
思，死 ，撕。

也许这是最好，不期望不后悔不奢望。
安安静静的。
没了。

会
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认错

人往往做了错事，
就会想办法找他人过错来弥补自己的罪恶感？
心虚的心情，
而做更多东西让对方快乐，好让自己的心情好过？
 每个人有着自己的想法与做法，
不能辩对与错。
明明自己心里渴望的东西，且在背后做多次的小动作。
有时候，对方也是睁一只眼闭一只眼。
江山易改，本性难移啊。。。
乏了。睡

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纠纷

两个人火在头上时，什么最难听的话都说得出。

猪狗不如，禽兽一样。

"DIAM" = 这一句，我会记到永远，一世。第一次，也是最难忘。

人生当中，还没被如此对待。

真的感谢，太感谢了。

让我领悟，教导了我，人性另一方面。

可悲，自残，自虐，犯贱的我。

也不过如此。

不写了。

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