最后一次

今天，不知道会是什么心情。
现在3.52 am 了。
我睡不着，脑子满都是你。
认识你近一个月，发觉自己喜欢上你了。
对不起，虽然我是不应该，可是还是控制不了。

昨天，读了你的blog.
眼泪不知不觉的掉了下来。。。
知道着甲和乙的故事。

那我说个故事吧。
甲和乙暂时分开了
甲为了读书，与乙分开两地。
常常思恋着对方。

有一天，甲认识到了丙。
两个人很快的变成了好朋友。
甲时常对丙诉苦，谈心事。
两个人还蛮开心的。

不知不觉，丙发现了自己爱上了甲。
丙觉得很对不起乙，知道是不应该的。
可是且不能够控制自己。
甲知道了，很关心着丙，同时爱着乙。
丙觉得很辛苦，自己过意不去。
丙决定离开甲，因为甲与乙才是天生一对。
丙痛恨自己为什么会爱上甲。
并觉得他们想见恨晚。

丙希望甲能够爱丙，可是不能够那么自私。
唯一的只能看着心爱的人，开心与祝福。
自己一个人承担着一切。
丙再也得不到这样的爱情与关怀了。
哭了几夜，还是没用。
哭了不就会好吗？都没有。
丙很自责，决定了，不再做坏人。
被爱很幸福，爱一个人很难。
丙的感情那么艰苦。为什么？

故事就不再继续了。。。
不知以后 会发生什么事情。。。
不敢想了。
最后一次了。。。
希望你们会好好的过吧。要幸福哦。。。
我应该会好吧。
不见了。
我爱你。

last meet

saw your blog what u said on april 5
i read it,n i cry for it
i know the answer from u.
i will leave u
far away from u.
thanks for giving me happiness
and feelings to make me fall in love again.
i know your love is very special
and appreciate each other
i wont disturb u
and me maybe wont let u fall in love with me so strong
or maybe u didnt fall to.
i decide to leave.
i will control myself.
every tears for u is worth
every pain i get is worth
every happiness i remember
every thing i will keep in my heart.
u need to take care of urself.
i cant do it for u anymore.
hope u happy forever with ur lover.
goodbye fren...

haunted night

nights....many nights....dream...in my mind
i still remember who appeared in my dream.
is u..is u........omg
that day i talk to u that i dreamed a person in my dream.
actually is u.
we spend alot of time together.
we go everywhere we can.
we care about each other.
we share everything
u teach me ur language
i teach u mine.
we were very happy in the dream.

but when i wake up,
my eyes already full of tears.
i duno why.
i miss u alot.
i ask u whether u like me,
what ur feeling towards me
u like wan to escape
jus asking me not to think so much.
u said that u treat me as a special fren
because in this situation
i couldn't accept it,but i must.

the way u hug,
the way u kiss,
the way u care,
the way u talk
the way u type
the way u breath
the way u laugh
the way u smile

all remember in my head.
u haunted my mind n my heart.
if all happen in reality not in dream that will be good.
but.........

i m sorry....

life mess up

it been a while i din updated my blog.
a lonely night actually
after a rain war yesterday between myself,
my feeling kinda mess up
it going wrong i being introduced by someone.
this person is so special when hanging out
just treat as friend from the start.
everything will going fine.
when the time past,
felt that i m falling in love without realizing,
my feel all goes wrong,
i cant falling in love.
what happen to me?
i cant falling in love with that person that i should,
but i cant control myself,
my best friends asked me: how sure i m?
i said more than 100% sure
my best friends asked me: how to control the feeling to fall to someone?
i answer i cant control,just fall to it.cant pull myself.
every time i chat,talk,msg.
i felt secure,sweet,happy
but at the same time
i felt suffer,confused,sad.
should i continue to falling in love with u or i just stop it.
i scare i will lost u.
even i meet u,i scare i cant control my self..
this all happen wrong when i meet u,i know u.
i blame myself i shouldn't know u from the start.
i cant ask u to break up.
i cant even do the worst thing to u.
let me suffer myself and u happy for ur life.
i think the best way is just let u go.
i will miss u n remember u in my life always.
what happen between us wouldn't have a happy ending in this situation.
take good care of urself.
i hope we can know earlier.
still hoping the miracle but i know it wont...
c what u decided.......

miss u......

好久好久没写了。。。
对不起。。。没有update 到。。。
在这3 个月，发生了好多事情啊。。。
开始了一段感情，断了一段感情。。。
有了心上人，有了仰慕者。
考试，assignments,工作。。。
现在终于放假了，顿时觉得轻松。
hmm,不知道人生好像失去了目标。
还在 寻找着。。。

工作
我开始了工作，一便读书，一便工作。
工作as a promoter,
认识了不同的人
看着人的个性。
推销一个产品不容易啊。
可是久了，也体会了朋友说的工作生涯。
好闷啊。。。人是无聊了。。。可是还是有钱拿。。


感情
追求了一个人，被拒绝了。
开始了一段感情，在一起不久又断了。
被爱了，心里又觉得有迷失的感觉。
单身好吗？
要找到适合的人不容易啊。。。
要渴望吗？
可能不了。。。
我没了一段感情，朋友各各都陷入感情问题之中。

3个月前的我，3个月后的我。
我到底怎么了？
怎么变了？
人会变，怎么我变了180度。
好恐怖啊。。。
我希望这个改变应该会好吧。。。

blog,希望我会好点吧。><